Like a Ton of Bricks....

You ever been told something that just floored you? what about something that should've floored you but you remain standing. sort of numb to it but...just in awe and not sure how to react? my initial response when i read that email was tears...but they didn't fall. i am genuinely happy for her. i really am. and i know i said i wouldn't blog about her anymore from the other entry but i had to comment on this. I'm in such a state of shock. I wonder when it will hit me? all of the things i have said about women with kids and who im looking for and...now shes in that situation pretty much. sorta stalked and read her relationship status and it said single but she may not be. i don't wanna ask. same reason I didn't ask how she was doing when she started emailing me in the middle of November. i honestly didn't want to know how happy she was with her new boyfriend. semi finding out now however...im not moved by it. i am truly deeply happy for her and i want her to be happy and succeed in life. I will be there for her no matter what just like she asked. i believe her when she said she has no ill will toward me. Even as a friend, which i honestly believe i can do now... i WILL be there for her.