Happiness is still elusive to me

No matter what choices I make or decisions I see

I forever pick the wrong one always outdone

By hatred & jealousy from people who're always on one

I just try to be peace like Ree said

But every time I close my eyes I can see red

And they test cuz they think its all gravy

Smoother than velvet or softer than a baby

It hurts hard when you relinquish trust

and its pummeled, spat on and tossed in the dust

Why plot on the inside? 

Supposed to be a unit but there's always a divide

Is this really what your life has brought you?

Lonely because you close off the world in your cubicle

Give em all that they want and more till you're sore

Still ending up short cuz you seem to be a bore

Then it changes so quick

The synapses in my brain can't move that quick

You mean to tell me the monetary change

Makes for a new life and anger is estranged?

That act is deranged you passed all the bullshit

Grown as fuck so now you guess you gotta pull it

Back to the old days being what it was

But smarter for the ware and much deeper in love

Give it all away like Jesus asked us

Maybe then we can understand the sad stuff

 

Better.